It's Been Too Long ...

by Jo Gail Dolenski

I have been remiss and on this Anniversary of my Boo's death I wanted to come visit...I see so many new folks and feel so badly for them....I have tried to stay so busy to help the pain, but it's all still there and then the nightmare of the first year, etc..

I have a couple of verses to share, as I have so many....none are adequate as the real pain of this silent killer of tiny souls...

A Gift For Boo
By Jo Gail Dolenski
December 25, 1997

Oh, Precious Boo, what gifts to bring
This Merry Christmas Day....
Could possibly even remotely suffice
For all I need to say....

Just missing you is so benign
For all I really feel...
As merely making it through these days,
Took all my strength and will...

Yet you were the one who helped me see
That love the healer be...
For the wounds, still fresh, from losing you Come from the depths of me...

Your courage, alas, is what I have...
To guide me through these days..
For your smile was my guide as surely as... Rudolph leads Santa's sleigh...

I have no gifts that will ever be...
Compared to what I knew...
Close to one blessed year...
That I was able to spend with you...

So I come to you this Christmas Day...
My heart in pieces askew...
To say I love you with all my heart...
Jonathan Curtis, My Boo...

Christmas Wish
By Jo Gail Dolenski
November 18, 1997

It is almost now again that time
To come to Santa dear...
To climb up on his loving knee..
For our gift list for this year...

We knew this time a year ago...
Exactly what to do...
For it would be trains, and boats and planes.. For Nanna’s darling Boo!!

For he would be almost two years old!
When down the chimney Santa would climb.. A big boy to tell him himself...
What was on his list this time...

We laughed with joy at the very thought... With merriment and glee...
However, we knew not the plan...
The year ahead would be....

As now there will be no visit here...
For little Boo has gone...
No lights the house will adorn and glow... For we are sad and all alone...

Yet, I believe that Santa’s sleigh...
Will surely go on high...
And can climb above the stars and clouds As it prances through the sky...

For surely heaven is on the list...
Of stops for Santa too...
So he could take my wish this year...
To my precious, Mr. Boo!!

Santa just tell him I love him so...
When he climbs up on your knee...
And how I miss him every day...
As you kiss him gently for me...

Be sure and tell him I did not forget...
The babies oh so small...
And will take a gift on Christmas eve... In his memory from us all...

So Santa you must be the one...
The messenger to be...
Hug Boo tight from his Nanna dear...
While he is there upon your knee...

Kiss all the babies and hold them tight.. For those that it cannot be...
And that will be my Christmas wish...
From you... to Boo... from me...