Happy 2nd Birthday Alauna Jean Gay
by Alauna's Mother, Pam
Date: Thu, 3 Jun 1999
May 28th was Alauna's 2nd birthday. It is hard to imagine her as two years old when in my mind I see her as a happy healthy baby who we lost to SIDS when she was only 7 weeks old. Five days before her 2nd birthday her baby sister Ciarra turned 1 YEAR old. What a glorious day. Even though she is a year now I do still worry but I know I have to have faith she will be OK. I took flowers and a birthday balloon up to the cemetery on the 29th. I just could not bear to go there on her birthday. I know she understands but it is just so hard. On Memorial Day Makayla our almost 6 yr old and Talia our 4 year old went with my husband and they took flowers.
It was so hard to have to tell her happy birthday at a cemetery. My heart felt so sad. I also told her that in October she would have a new baby brother. We just had the ultrasound and this one is a boy. I am so excited but the fears are and always will be there. It is so hard when people see our 3 "living" girls and comment on us having 3 girls and I just want to scream NO I have 4 girls. I just cannot leave Alauna out. She is and always will be part of our family. When this baby is born we will look like a family that has 4 children but we have 5. One of them is just being raised in our Heavenly Father's arms. I know she is happy but my heart has and will always have a hole in it for my darling little baby angel Alauna.
Happy Birthday Alauna.
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