4 Angels = Joy

By Diane Rice
My angel, Luke was almost 7 months old when he left this world on December 6, 2002. He was six weeks premature, when he was born on May 6th, 2002. He was doing so well, and we thought we were "out of the woods" as far as his health was concerned. I guess we were wrong. I have 3 other children. They are what keeps me going. But I don't think I will ever know joy again. I don't even want to feel joy. People tell me "it will get better,” But I don't care if it does. Nothing matters except raising my children and then when they are adults, I pray God will mercifully take me at a young age, so I don't have to spend one more day on this earth with out him.

Date: Thu, 20 Feb 2003

4 ANGELS = JOY
3 angels do not equal joy
4 minus 1, my precious boy.
Once there was the gift of 4
but God took the 4th angel I bore.

Gone is the 3 angels brother
and also gone is their mother.
The angels are full of confusion
mom's there...but she’s just an illusion.

She wishes she was the mom they once knew but she is dead, its sad but true
earthly angels do not deserve this plight. Is this the plan God had in sight?

Why did angels ages 3, 5, and 7
need to see their brother go to heaven?
These angels know the pain of death
they saw a baby breathe its last breath.

Their mother tries hard to pretend
but some hearts are to broken to mend.
God took their mother from them too
What are the angels suppose to do?

They are too young to feel such pain.
They see mother's tears fall like rain.
Their mother so wishes it wasn't true
But there is nothing she is able to do.

Oh what joys,
2 girls and 2 boys
but that was when God loved me
not when death was "meant to be".

4 angels equals joy.
Hell equals the death of 1 boy.