Keep his Memory Alive
by Kristine M. Neiman
I look back at how I was just a short time ago,
the pain fresh and new, something that I never wish to feel again.
I see how far we have both come, but still try to keep his memory alive.
It's getting harder everyday, to remember everything about him.
Sometimes I only remember what my heart thinks I want to feel.
But I realize that his life is a part of both of us which I will never lose,
no matter how many children come along to ease the pain of this loss.
I believe that the guilt will always be here,
wasn't I supposed to protect him? I was all that he had.
Where did I go wrong?
Things from my past come back to haunt me,
as I search for a reason why this happened to us.
Days go by and I do not think of what happened,
but the emptiness is always there.
I fell as though I am searching for something to fill a void
in my heart where my child once laid so close.
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